i cant wait for it to start... and i cant wait for it to end... its like a concert... a performance... a musical competition...

you learn your craft... you study the scores... and you improve your skills...
you practise your piece... you know it by heart... and you go through the rehearsals...
then the time comes... and you're finally on stage...
you show off your skills... and you warrant your wage...
then as it started... it has ended... ...
everyone on stage relieved... everyone off stage is pleased... you smile... you bow... and you take your leave...

they will never know how hard you practised... never know how much you sweat... they will never remember the troubles you faced... never remember the setbacks you had... to them... all that ever mattered... was that hour you staged... to them... your worth has been decided... by that song you just played...

you cant turn back the clock... correct the mistakes you made... because your worth has been decided... and so has your fate...

if there is one thing that joining the school band has taught me... it is this... the world does not reward hard work or effort... all that is ever rewarded is the minutes in concert...

the same goes for exams, interviews, presentations etc... ... all the hard work and preparation accounts for nothing... if the results are poor and you're under-achieving... a man is judged by his fruits... as the bible rightly puts... people have claimed that results are not everything... but they are wrong and it is a lie... because when it comes down to results... all that counts is what and not why...

i know that i have put in the effort... that i have run the race... but in 2 weeks time... for each paper i still need Your grace... and i pray that You will be with me... because if You are for me... then who can stand against me!!!!!... oh yeh!!... and amen...