end of spring week 4

hmm... another good weekend... went paint-balling on saturday!! ...haha... not cheap... but still a tiny bit cheaper than singapore... so... well... glad sing soc organised it... was fun!! oh well... we din win much... i guess army training does not help at all when it comes to paint-balling... haiz... all the sing-ka-por NSmen got trashed by civilian ang mohs... haha... and really trashed... like we won one game, drew one game and got totally defeated in the other six games!! haha... hmm... i guess edwin our safos "future general" should rethink saf doctrines and training... hahaha... so malu... if was war... i would have died 8 times liaoz... but it was an experience... body aching sia... both from muscle aches and bruises... discovering new bruises each time i bathe... haha... at least i am not as bruised as others...

went to lip en and xiufang's place for dinner after that... haha... good to have such dinners... should have it more often... its just nice to sit around, chat and eat home cooked food with ur friends... definitely not something we do in singapore... well... it just feels different from eating out... guess both have its pros and cons...

well... haven really thanked God for my progress test... yup... because i wasnt happy about it... i really deserved more than wat i got... i mean... how can anyone be satisfied knowing that you could have gotten more... or knowing that things should/could have been so much better... anyway... when good things happen to you... you thank God... wouldnt it make sense that when things dun go ur way that you blame God too? but as you know... things dont work that way... simply because all things happen according to His will... and i guess His will overwrites my will... just too bad... i am afterall just mere man... weak and dependent on Him... yup... prayed to let Jesus know that i wasnt happy about what i got and that i want more next time round (final exams... hehe...) you know... it is not about the results... resultswise, for me at least, i did not do too badly... got an a for all the tests and placed sixth overall... (the other two singaporeans placed higher at 1st and third) .... which means (as i had probably explained in a previous post) that we are in the top fifth of our cohort and our school term would end on 1st june... or about 3 weeks before the official end of the school year... but still... for such an easy test... i really should have done better... getting 80s instead of the 90s and 95s is sad... really... Ben Loh who top the course got full marks for 4 of the 5 tests... yeah... said it just to show how attainable 90s and 95s for tests were... haizz... i know that i am better than my 80s... its not about the numbers or results... its about fulfilling ur potential and expectations... oh well... sorry for whinning... cant really do anything about it except whine... maybe if i "whine" enough... God may just give in and let me have my way like the parable of the women and the heartless judge... haha... i know... whining is not good... but i dun really care... i cant help it that i still feel dissatisfied about the progress test... decided to finally personally tell God about it... dun know what took me so long to cast my cares and feelings upon Him... as a singaporean, it should have been my first instinct to go to Jesus and comprain and comprain... and comprain... haha... i realise that i always pray about present worries and for future blessings instead of complaining about the past... and of course not forgetting to thank Him for the good things in life... or at least the things that i appreciate and have not yet taken for granted... haha... hmmm... maybe i should comprain about the dull winter weather and to ask for snow too... haha... oh well... dear Lord. I pray for snow. I want snow... Pleeaasee send snow. Pleeaaasseeee. please. please please please send snow. Thank you. Amen. =)

oh well... ok... time to get my laundry...

Bye